bouquet of love #21

as i stand with my bags packed

waiting for the taxi to come,

i drift into the ramblings i have

feel the eternity of distance approaching between us..

every breeze brings with it 

a whiff of you, unforgettable and inachievable

its difficult to let go of, and say good bye

to all the unsaid and spoken and all the felt and left over..

as i break into tears, each tear reminds me 

of moments we had together

of the fights, laughter and joy we felt

of the rains and the movies and the coffees..

when we agreed to disagree on everything

rose in me the gratitude and sea of emotions

for not letting ME be

killing our dreams and castles woven in the heart..

its difficult to say goodbye

when you don't know whether its even gonna happen again

to come to US and let it be

falling head over heels in love all over again..

with each other, for each other, together forever!

words/moments i take back..

now that i m bidding adieu not forever but for not showing them my bright smiling face everyday either at work or at 'home', i shall hereby quote the customized things/lines/words about people who have been quintessential in making my life a rockstar life whom i will never forget...

Janavi Iyer - 'Meeroooo..', 'disgusting', 'uhhhh!', 'miss you', 'oh f**k', 'princess' and the list will go on and on and on and on... <3 love u girl!! all your attitude and people handling skills shall be remembered boss!

Payal Basotia - 'wo mein bhool gayi', 'ha toh phir', 'chudail', 'shooni'... and your anger ofcourse... sweet nautanki you are! :)

Mohit Taneja - your simplicity and surrenders.. he he..

Karan - your expertise in movies and music.. awesome you are!!

Sanjeev Ratan Singh - paapu...!! how can i forget the masala chaai at the kitlis and drives.. your perception to look at situations and your bindaas attitude...

Viraj - you are one person from whom i have leart 'sleeping'.. those chats in the middle of the night, studies during the exams and so much more..

Megha - i will always miss the desi-comments that we pass at every point, 'paadi.. faati jais!', also the tel champi i will miss the most...

Aboli - KK... i will miss your late tubelight forever...! your sense of humor and love.. serene and divine..

Anirvan - dada... Rockstar you are and you treat us all the same way. i will always remember the way you motivate me and the fun and magic we seek in every element in life..

Pallavi - your hospitality, your warmth, parties at your place, your loving nature... and gossips! :)

Lajja - 'hay hay chhokri!'.. hoon tane bahu j miss karish. tari vato and tari sathe ni yado har hamesh mara hriday ma taaji rehshe.. ane ha tara taiyar thavana ane khavana sokh ne thodi bhuli shaku? hows this??

Milin - without your teachings i wouldn't have been able to pass with flying colors. u were an ideal student and had always been a sincere friend..

Janaki -TT khelne chale?? cheating!! its allowed with me not with u!... party with u guys and gettlin sloshed was the greatest thing... dancing with you in all style and latka-jhatka and all... OMG! m gonna miss you girl...

Rumi - 'what the hell yaar!'.. i can't take this anymore.. i am going now.. i wanna go for a holiday.. he he.. rumi, u are one girl who will never take chhuttis and crib about it all the time.. the time spend at ur place and on the terrace was one of the best times in my life.. you commitment is one thing i take forward in life..

Sunil - 'Suniley' ab mujhe 'Meerey' kaun bulayega?? :( you are one gem of a person who just can't get over telling stories about childhood, your number of girlfriends and your boldness.. i think you are the worst match-maker on this earth.. now how will u tease 'heera', 'gajhni', 'khemraaj' and all?? do find someone better for me now..

Siddhant - your sincerity in listening (only) is the greatest thing.. man! i just can't have even 50% of patience as you have. 'tension mat lo ho jayega'.. i think i will need someone to come and speak this one line to me for like 50 times in a day.. even then nobody would be able to match you.. i bet! ;-)

Percy - parties and food are two things where we've had a 50-50 partnership. and i love both equally.. laughter, running around in the office, food, everything is gonna be remembered...

Mihir - 'e sorrrrrra! moza maa?' ha ha.. mihir you will always be remembered in my thoughts for the pathetic PJs and your intellect and interest in technical topics is the thing that impresses me everytime i talk to you or discuss something with you. you should have been an engineer man!

Mansi - 'F**k u!'.. ur favorite word right?? how can i just forget all the drama scenes that happened in the middle of the night? courtesy Ms. Mansi Thakkar! :) you are too young to get on the right path in life and even if it IS the right path, you are young to handle and walk straight on the path.. girl your bindaas nature and care-free attitude is worth implementing in life.. miss u!!! :) xx

i hope you all liked it!

random ramblings...

i was just thinking of writing something and how can there be any better topic then my stay in Ahmedabad for 3 years??!! its been a wonderful experience sharing life and love and a lot more with the extended family that we have formed here. 

those late night coffees, pop-corns, movies till dawn, midnight drives, coffee-shops at wee hours, pillow fights, meaningless laughs to glory, emotional atyachaar, cries out-of-no-reason, fights for ego, gossips, adventures against strangers, masala chaai, kitlis, novels and books, surprise parties, gifts, flowers bouquets, working till like 6 in the morning, cribbing about the bosses, and just all of it!

today when i m movin toward 'home' towards 'family', i am overwhelmed and emotional to see everything flowing right in front of my eyes.. away from me! i know these days are never gonna come back and these moment are the ones i shall cherish till eternity. i shall sit lonely at the window pondering inside, looking at the dark sky thinking of all of it. am i making the right move? can anybody just come and hold my hand and show me the right path which leads me to destiny? was it enough to achieve all that i have in these 3 yrs? did i miss saying 'sorry' to a friend? did i missed the love-of-my-life? did i forgot to listen to a well-wisher? did i not make the FULL use of these years i was given? 

m sure there would be things i would be missing onto but at the same time i m sure there are people whose lives i have touched and made a difference. there are people whom i've made smile. there are places where i have filled colors of happiness, there are moments where i have filled emotions, there are days when i have cried my heart out, there are moments where i have been strong enough to face the storm racing in my life. i have had all of it and i have grown out of all of it. i am sure i have done all of it.. 

but today i have these hundreds of random thoughts that are running through my mind and making my heart thump at the very thought of my new life. 

i have my extended family here, my friends, who are all gonna be with me when i finally step towards the new chapter of my life and leave my dreams to pursue new dreams..

this is an ode to all my friends, specifically to Janavi, Payal, Pratik, Mohit, Karan, Viraj, Megha, Rupa, Aboli, Nupur, Anirvan, Pallavi, Mansi, Lajja, Milin, Janaki, Rumi, Sunil, Shreshth, Percy, Siddhant, and all whom i have'nt named in the list. thanks for just being there for me at various points in life. ur presence has made my life worthwhile and have let me grow as a person. you are all my family and i will always remember you!

love you all....

hope in the inbox..

Everyday i start my desktop/lappi with a hope, a hope to open my inbox and find a new mail.. i dont know what is it that i am seeking in there but i have this anxiety to look for something in the inbox. rather a mail that would provide me some clue to my so-called direction-less life, a mail that would add meaning to my current life, a mail that would be a surprise and would come as a life changer.. a mail that would add a new dimension to life and change the meaning of my existence.

every damn day there is a hope in me that emerges since the time i open my eyes and every damn night i sleep with a hope that tomorrow will bring with it the change in my life...  hope, hope, and only hope...