bouquet of love #13

i secretly yearn for you as the night passes by
i m needing you as it drags slowly
i hope you're longing for me too..
someday our winding paths will meet 
and u'll jus b there in front of me
that is when i'll know i've found you
to many it seems insignificant
but to u it matters, its meaningful
i am waitin till that day to meet
to explore the depths of our hearts
and we'll have the eternal memories
worth every tearful moment that we've waited
as this night drags by, we are apart
but yet closer to our moment in the near future..

bouquet of love #12

sometimes at night, when i look at the sky
i start thinking of you and ask myself why?
why do i love you? i think and smile,
because i know the list could run on for miles..


the whisper of you voice, the warmth of you touch
so many little things that make me love you so much..


the way you support me, and help me with my emotions
the way that you care and show me such devotion..


the way that you kiss, fills me with desire
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire...


the way your eyes shine when you look at me
lost with you forever is what i want to be..


the way that i feel when you are by my side
a sense of completion and overflowing pride..


the dreams that i dream, that all involve you
the possibilities i see and the things we can do..


how you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part..


i could go on for days tellin you what i feel
but all you really must know is my love for you is real!

bouquet of love #11

my heart was once a house
with so many rooms with open doors..
i wud rather allow love enter through the doors
change the room completely around and leave it empty
till one day i realized it was too much pain
digesting to the new layout and settling in the same
so i started closing each door one by one
and gradually forgot what love was like
now there is only one room open in my heart
if you are true and loving, there is a place in my heart..
if you have the same urge to love like me,
there is a room in my heart..


we will change the room inside out
and make it look like a palace new,
we shall paint its walls from blue to red
and bring in stuff that makes it shine
we will set out the fire in one corner
together we wud keep out the cold
and create a mood of a candlelight 
and dance to the rhythm of our love..


so there is surely a room in my heart
if u willing to surrender to love by your art..
ur welcome to step into the room
and make it ours through  the bloom...

bouquet of love #10

i'd rather be somewhere alone with you
then thinking whether you'd be feeling the same too..
i haven't seen you, met you, heard you,
touched you, or even felt you...
are you the one? i question myself..
but somehow i feel that you could be the one..
what is going to happen as fate is unknown
but what is known is that i feel for you
i like talking, sharing, dreaming and planning things
with you it makes a lot of sense to me..
i would want to be with you to see you,
meet you, hear you, touch you and feel you..
the vibes that wud rise then will be an indication
of the coming future to me..
sooner than later but later than sooner
its dwindling every moment
but i know that its you who is gonna stay with me
forever being my friend.. my share!

female foetus..

the minds were tensed
but not at all fensed
bodies were filled with excitement
to fulfill the duties and resposibitites was the committment..

after much of pain and tension
came a feeling of relaxation with a happy gesture
how light the moods went is not required to be mentioned
An angel was blessed in the arms of the mother
to see the angel uneasy and curious was the father..

the first glance at the very cute angel
had the power to captivate even a stranger
happiest were the parents to have this first moment
stunning were their eyes and their words had no comments..

right from the very moment were there plans made
about the happy moments of future which were never gonna fade
came along with it was a net knitted with expectations
the whole image came out of their ideas' menifestation..

this is wat the scene was in the hospital room
when a lucky girl was born it surely was a boon
she was welcomed in the world with open arms
it was sure then there was not goin to be any harm..

lucky are those very few
who are not among those who are being thrown
to destroy the female foetus
and continue promoting a male-dominated world...

piya sang milan...

hawaaein rukh badal rahi hai
fizaaon me nasha sa chha raha hai
aapke k aane ka yeh sara badlaav aa raha hai
dil jhoom raha hai aur dhadkane badh rahi hai
thoda sa dar hai to khusi se machal bhi raha hai

apko sarahne k liye nazre bichaye baithe hai hum
badan bhi bijli ki tarah tharthara raha hai
palke pyasi hai aapki ek zhalak dekhne k liye
aur kaanom ko aapki awaaz sunne ki bekaraari hai

aap aye to aisa laga ki duniyan ruk gai
khusi itni mili k kuch hosh na raha
duniya dekhti rahi aur hum aapke ho gaye
phir hosh aya to laga ki koi baat nahi
duniya dekhe to bhi kya sharmana aakhir aap hume lene aye ho..

kaise beete itne saal yaha ye to pata tha
par kaise beet gaye chand lamhe aapke sath ye pata na chala
waqt jiase thm sa gaya ho hamare milan pe aisa laga
ehsaas bas hua ki mile tabhi guzar gaya yeh lamha

aapke intezaar me itna sabra hum ne kiya
ki bas ab zyaada rukne ki humme himmat nahi
bas bahot ho gaya ye dur rehna
ab paas aa ke bana lo hume apna
le chalo hume uss rah par jahan hai aapka basera

keh dungi alvida... apne pariwaar ko
saheliyon ko, mere bachpan ko, uss ghar ko
jisme aapse pehli baar milne ki yaadein basi hai,
unn sare logon ko jo saath chale hai ab tak

chal padna hai ek nayi jagah, ek naye desh,
ek naya naam, naye dost aur naya nazariya
bas aap saath ho yehi hai apnapan
baki sab ko peeche chhod bharosa kiya hai aap par
rakhenge mujhe chit chor apni pyari bana kar..

yahi sandesha dena tha sab ko
ki aa gayi hai ab jaane ki ghadi
padh lo sab meri man ki ye kahani
lo chali mein piya man basne aapki raani...

bouquet of love #9

I am charming, bubbly & chirpy
everyone around me find me crispy
I love to make everything lively
which can bring everyone smilies..


one beautiful day i met you
met you in the gush of this materialistic world
I lost myself over you
and made you my whole world..


my heart thumped faster and made a beep
saying me that YOU are the man of my life
but you took my love as false and cheap
killed me alive even without a knife..


I know somewhere deep inside
you feel the same for me
even twice then what I mean
but your mind is stopping your heart..


I readily gave you my treasure
not with the thought to gain worldly pleasure
but to you I dedicate myself
which is as pure and sacred as pearl in a shell..


Days passed by, months passed by
but my love grew younger and younger
coz i have not fallen in love with you
but.. I have risen in love with you!!


I understood the meaning of being me
you made me think, feel and act
from you & me, it now became WE
and all this in my life had a great impact..


but when you desired of it
I lost myself..
lost my heartbreaks, lost my world,
lost every bit till eternity..


I admire you, I adore you,
I respect you, I pray you,
I worship you......


You are the sun of my life,
which can bring the real shine
bring life to my dead life
and make me perfect and fine..


I doubt.. doubt whether you'll get the essence of my love
the intimacy of which can just be felt and explained not...


I doubt.. doubt whether you'll be able to make it
make it before I end this lifeless life..


I doubt.. doubt whether i'll ever be happy and calm again
cuz without you my world comes to an end................

bouquet of love #8

I remember when I met you
the smile on my face
seems like a million years ago-
a different time and place


I remember when I hugged you
the warmth inside my heart
I thought it'd last a lifetime
I swore we'd never part


I thought about the future
I started making plans
forever you'd be my man
forever i'd be your woman


we went together places
so that everyone could see
the man that I want to share
the rest of my life with


I told you that I loved you
I told you that I cared
I told you if you were falling
just look back and i'll be there


I know I didn't have all the answers
sometimes I guessed
but, through it all I have to say
"I always tried my best!"


I wasn't always perfect
I wasn't always right
I know sometimes I wasn't
even worthy of your sight


sometimes i often wonder
just what lies ahead
sometimes i'd like to turn back time
and take back what you said


I know sometimes I did things
you didn't comprehend
but, through the years and all the tears
the memories will never fade....

bouquet of love #7

As another night passes by
i think and think but get no answers
i ask myself why, why do i love you?
there is so much that comes to my mind
but not a very few...


is it the care that makes me feel nourished and freshfull?
or it is the protection i feel when you are around?
is it the fire that sets in me when you touch me?
or the solace i find lying on your shoulder?


is it the light that shines my face at your very glance?
or is it the coy that is seen in my eyes when you stare me?
is it the warmth of your arms that keep me survived?
or is it just the very presence of u in me?


i have so many questions that appear in my thoughts
each and all left unanswered
but the only assurance of you being there with me
leaves me relaxed and satisfied forever.....

learning process

i still remember entering into the school building
frowning and crying
when even a word uttering 
was what i was still finding..


i grew and blossomed
learned and gathered so many things
we were all part of a fathom
where we were taught to open our wings


today i have ended that wonderland
and entered into a new band
where still i'm an infant
crawling to learn even at this instant


the only difference between the two
can only be understood by a few
the previous was the place where we were molded
and here is the place which breaks us- the folded


the only thing that we carry forward
is to move ahead and not look backward
to start at each moment afresh
leaving the rest in Trash!!

bouquet of love #6

If I am to tell it someday 

Than why not I speak of it today?

How much difference does it create in me

When it comes to having you in ‘WE’

It is horrible to imagine the tomorrow

Even not having you in the yesterday

But my today has been a new direction

Looking with a different angle brought the change

Down n lonely was I 

But you uplifted and boosted me 

I led you down quite a few times

But you remained there and handled me with peace

Docile, deserted and withered was I 

But I groomed and blossomed with you

You let in me the importance of ‘ME’

Which again added more respect and love to ‘WE’!!

saying of an old house..

I am the very same house
that you emptied & went away
You left me in the craze for being with the new
And abondened me saying I'm very old & due..

You left the very same place
Where you learnt to eat, walk & face,
face the future that came your way
The very act beneath your fate..

I'm still waiting
in the hope the that u'll some day remember me
And come to me back again
In the memory of the past
which has my existence in it..

People die they say,
but hope never
So am I here,
waiting for you ever...

journey of life...

they say that life is all about mistakes
to learn things from the lessons of life
to abide by the boundaries made
and to stick to the new learnings that came up the way..


they think that admitting ur mistakes
shows the weakness in you
but sometimes doin so lead to the path
that brings inner satisfaction to us...


its about loving what u did
not repenting why u did 
and still moving on in life
as a person of new set


its important to look back at wat life was
which will lead to the path of where you are today
just letting you be
and console your inner-self of how you reached your present!


that is called the journey of life....

bouquet of love #5

i don't want your sensitive paper-like boat to sink
so i don't sit in it with you...


i love you from the bottom of my heart 
wid a fear of your anger i don't speak of it..


i feel like spending all the time with you, staring at your face and looking into your eyes
but can't see you in an issue so i don't ask for it..


my world revolves around you, i've placed you in my eyes
but can't afford loosing you so i don't cry..


you are as delicate as a flower,
thinking that your petals would wither, i don't touch you..


theres no second thought for burning myself in the fire of the pain of my unanswered love
but u'll get lost in the darkness doesn't let me be..


i can skip a heart-beat but can't miss remembering you,
i don't wanna make it sound like a complain and so i m stoppin myself here..


but i will always linger in my thoughts....

bouquet of love #4

happy realization..
i had an impression that its everyone
who has to have an opinion about me
but you made me realize that its none other
than you to have the real me..

it doesn't matter what i wear or say
wat i speak or show
wat i have it in me or wat i hide
all that matters is how u catch me
the real me that is pure and insane at the same time..

expression doesn't matter
wat matters is to follow ur essence
to have faith and to believe
to be truer than ever and beautiful as ever..

when this is known
there is no worry that abides me
to feel the virtual me and know me
is the only need i have..

when cleared, it leaves me at peace
makin me think calmly
the thgouht of being possessed by you
leaves me plain..

thank you for being my reflection...

the weekend that was...

came back home after 2 months!!
sorted out a lot of things..
went off to bed not before 2am
had a lot of fun wid entire family for one whole day
got dressed up and flaunted in the family function
had a great time wid mom dad :)

going back to office on monday is surely not the next plan in action..
want weekends to last as long as weekdays..

the weekend that was...

partied on friday..
saw movie..
had a candle light romantic dinner with a girlfriend
g-chatted with ol mates
cooked a feast for sunday lunch
relaxed and cuddled in the noon
and had wonderful afternoon nap...

thats about it.. it feels soooooo soothing!! aaaah... :-)

wave of emptiness takes over...

2 am. i boggle through my mind and introspect about what exactly is happening in my life since a few months. i question myself as to what i have been doing and how have i gone about it. life gives us so many things to indulge.. as in relationships, friends, work, fun, adventure, emotions, and the list is endless..

we are always occupied wid something or the other or may be multi-tasking with many things at the same time.. i was jus pondering upon what i have been upto since past few months. where m i heading, what m i doin, how m i doin things that come my way and all.. life gives us so much that we are always full and loaded. but suddenly i have been experiencing this wave of emptiness.. i feel so hollow from inside.. it can either be quoted as a state of confusion or as a mysterious state where i don know where to go and what to feel.. the priority list is screwed up and there seems no direction to anything.

its the feeling of emptiness, numbness, hollowness & space within you. there is nothingness all over, no mass you can weigh or give importance to. this introspection thing is very bad i m telling you.. it gives you a sad reflection if you dont enjoy the emptiness.. there are basically two sides to emptiness, one when you totally enjoy the emptiness and feel at peace and the other when you dont seem to have any matter important enough to drive your entire concentration to and take time to think, feel and react! currently i am experiencing the latter.

it feels pathetic to feel that hollow and empty nothingness.. it drives you towards pondering on various incidents, either present or past, and scratches out more from within. that which is left aside, unspoken & untouched. it brings in front all of it and asks you to withstand the byline of all of it..

i pity myself thinking of being in that wave of emptiness. miss the emotion, the life in things that i do, the fun in doin things and finishin it by the dead lines and all vanishes.. feel the dire need to have something more important, heavy and soothing.. which gives meanin to life and adds value to every moment i spend doing anything..

this emptiness can only vanish once your mind concentrates on something else which in turn is more important, more attractive, more indulging, more worthy and more meaningful.. here m talkin about some typical kind of emptiness... read the song to understand it...

feel like quoting a romantic song here:

i finally found someone
who makes me over my feet
i finally found someone
who makes me feel complete..

it started over coffee
we started out as friends
its funny how from simple things
the best thing became

this time is still
its all because of you
its better then its ever been
coz we can talk it through

my favorite line
was can i call you sometime
its all you had to say
to take my breath away..

did i keep you wait?
i didnt even mind
i apologize
baby thats fine
i'll wait forever
just to know you are mine..

i m sure when such emptiness takes over, few words from a sweetheart can melt the emptiness wave and get you back to motion, to life...

m waitin for that special someone to come and fill the emptiness within me.. some of you would be in the same state as mine.. so i wish all of them best luck for the search then.. till then keep filling ur inner-self with comments below my post ;-)

cheers!!!

journey of work..

it seems that there are endless things in this world that we dwell upon. to begin with our dreams, thoughts, aspirations, friends, fun, and 'work'!

the journey of our life leave no stone unturned. we face all the anxiety, enthusiasm, compatibility & involvement in all that life has to show to us.

from all the things that we dwell upon coming to 'work', i have been thinking about work a lot lately and i think i have a few works to say about work.

rule number one:
talking about work- the journey of 'over work' to 'work over' is very tiring. long and difficult. it takes out form you all the energy & glucose and lets you drool. drool without time to live life and healthy life.

rule number two:
the journey of 'over work' to 'work over' to 'work all over again' is very short. u hardly get time to live that part of life. hardly do you enjoy the short span of life till you find yourself loaded with work all over again. helpless to save yourself from the misery of live and the charm of life.. 'live life king size' goes for a toss :-(

rule number three:
its only when you work when you realize your ability and compatibility to either do the work or not to be able to do the work. so work and explore your ability and compatibility.

have a great day at work.. ;-)

cheers!!

bouquet of love #3

in the air i see

the sparkles and twinkles

for what reason i surely know

but dont want to put it across

love is in the air

cold breeze flowing on my face

abashed i feel and put my hands

to hide the expression of love that comes my way

i know that for once you know

of my love for you growing vigorously

i shall be an open book to you

each page u'll be able to read minutely

i want to do things for you

that have never been thought of

to be by you each moment

and give your space to you altogether

the essence of my love is all you

you rise in me the wild desire

to assuage the search of me within me

and tame the love flourishing around

i am so overwhelmed with emotions

feeling high without even being drunk

this world of love is so insane

it brings out the secrets arcane....!

i just love you so much to put it down in words...

a dream from GOD...

'ting tong.. ting tong.. ting tong.. ting tong..!' it hurt my ears and finally i decided to drag myself out of the bed and open the door.. i got horrified and amazed at the same time. it was totally unexpected to see a very delicate, glowing, beautiful and serene girl in her late 20s at the door front.

she was wearing a white dress and was so much composed.. the very smile that she was wearing on her face was so gentle and so much caring. there was peace on her face, her composure was plain yet attractive and soothing to the eyes..

i couldn't stop staring at her. she stood there and let me observe her for 5mins. coming back to senses, i realized that i haven't asked her to get in. i offered her to come in and she entered the house. she was so comfortable to be with and that too being the first thing in the morning.. it was 6am in the clock and i was half awake, but looking into her eyes gave me the spark in me and i felt fresh like forever..!!

she sat by me and just told me few simple things that i needed to know from somebody:

1. u don't need to expect from people all the time. they will play their part of role and give you as much they want to. ecpectations would bring me down.

2. u should always be confident about what you've done, what you are doing & what you're gonna do. it doesn't matter what people think, what matters is how you think, feel and believe in what you decide to do for yourself.

3. serving others is a good deed but always serving others and giving them the leisure of life is not worth while.

4. talking straight is a facet of a leo but in today's life talking straight in a sugar-coated manner is the most important thing required. you GOT to win the confidence of the opposite person and yet speak for yourself  and stand for yourself.

5. you have to give importance to urself. only then will you get recognition and importance from others. 'love yourself first.'

these are the five things that she told me and left.. she vanished like she melted in the air!

just then did i realize that it was a dream that i had just seen. the dream was so beautiful, and a kick-start morning i had.. i came to a conclusion that God himself was here to enlighten me on the questions that were within me.. i found the answers i guess and i'll hence imply this in my life now on.

reconciliation

Running and crying

Frowning, falling and fumbling

Where am I heading

That’s something that I’m not getting

Am I on the right path

Which takes me to you?

Or is it again to break my faith

And get me a frustration new?

The path is unknown just playing foul,

But I have only one thing to reach my goal

Although it may get me many obstacles

But I’m gonna be strong and tackle

To reach out to your inner self

And bring out the hidden part which is bereft

This is all I want to do

And reconcile you as the person of new SET…

void..

Why is this happening to me?

What are the mistakes I’m making?

Is it just because I always think ‘WE’?

Which has brought in me a new awakening…

I have no way to go anywhere

Or to find someone somewhere

Worthy of sharing my whole being

Not even a word here or there without your saying

Why am I so alone yet?

You cannot survive at my place I bet

Why am I confused so much?

Its impossible to bear dilemma such…

I am nowhere to go than you

But where are you gone without any motion

I’m looking for you but there are very few

Who know the paradigm within me with a big QUESTION!!

bouquet of love #2

strangers we were at one time
i had a world of my own
engrossed within i used to be
it used to be me and only me!

one fine day u came my way
we met as acquaintances
looking forward to achieve the same goal
playing harder each moment without any foul

we were introduced to be together
work together and let it happen
make the world realize of  the strength
that we possessed being two bodies and one soul

gradually i felt the air changing its direction
it seemed pink and shining everywhere
my skin started to glow each day
ur presence i think made me feel that way

to materialize the tinkles in the air
i started being with you all day
either in ur presence or in ur thoughts during your absence
it felt like i was never alone

you got into my blood intensely
whenever my blood gushed through my veins
and pumped in and out of my heart
i could feel the essence of you in me

that is what you made me feel
and absorbed me in your arms
mind body and heart all pumping to the same beat
thats what happens when two hearts meet..

cheers to our love! :-)

workaholism..

yesss.. the term workaholism is really apt for me! each cell of my body has been experiencing the stress of advertising lately.. i have been slogging since past 3 days like a dog trying to touch its tale and running round and round but getting nowhere..! its weird to quote such an example here but thats what is exactly happening in my not-at-all-happening life..

i have been trying to go out of my way and deliver things in as much creative way as possible but it seems that there is nothing that could click. before blabbering more let me just give a gist of what exactly on earth am i doing since 26th April, 2010.

there is this annual sales conference thing happening at the client's end and we being the agency for them are supposed to design the entire sales conference. this does not mean literal design but its actual design design of the collaterals required for the sales conference which include an audio-visual (short movie cum ad) for my brand, the life-size dummies of the products we have launched this year.

the work had been planned since two weeks but yet we get the changes in the brief last minute.. i have lost being home by decent hours, lost touch of my room-mates, my parents think i don't have time for them, my sleep has gone for a toss, i get irritated at petty things, i feel like killing somebody (specially my boss)!!

these are the effects of work on me.. my mind seems to suffer from a mental blockage! can't just think anything.. and my office becomes like a mental asylum by end of the day. recently we have been staying in office till 3 in the morning. but yeah, i cant forget to mention how i enjoyed being in office till i completely lost it.. till the time i couldnt open my eyes, till the time each muscle of my body froze to the level that it couldnt move by an inch.. it was great working with J, R & S till the morning while shouting, bitching, crying and cursing few people around. he he.. u know u should actually do it sometimes. :-)

i havent been home sine a month and half and couldnt go thos weekend either. was wondering to go to a dentist for some treatment but i think i'll myself have to pull out my tooth and survive.. (really this tooth ache is the saddest of all, neither can u eat nor can u drink!)

anyway this is the story of my so-called lifeless life since past week.. u guys have fun in the weekend and enjoy being with your friends adn loved ones and having a blast..

missing the life...

cheers!!