Hijacked...

its been ages i went for a loong drive, drooled over the fun and fresh feel of being 'me', sang loudly (though not in   any match to normal singing), and above all just being happy.. :-)

i had such a ball today.. it was a dinner date at Hijack (the new bus restaurant).. see.. now u r keen to know more.. about Hijack or about my dinner date hmmm? m sure about Hijack he he.. i went there with a frn Neha and it was a dinner dedicated to the single women... toast to all singles!

we began our journey with some 35mins of calls from office and client.. it was a horrible start.. there was no mood, no fun, no charm.. we were there coz we had purchased the tickets at 5 in the evening and there was no time to hand over the tickets to someone else.. so out of NO-OPTION we were there, sitting on the table, starting at each other and making no good time.. eventually it so happened that the live guitarist started to play some really nice numbers and also invited anybody who wanted to sing and enjoy..

gradually the mood was set and then we started takin interest in wat was happenin around us.. it was soo beautiful.. being on the road, high above all cars, singing, eating, clapping, shouting and still being care-free...

we sang all the songs from Saiyaan (Kailash Kher) to Yaaron dosti badi hi haseen hai to gulabi aankhein to tum ho to..  it was simply out of the world.. uncles sang for aunties, frns dedicated songs to other frns, there was love in the air..

even the waiters and the manager accompanied us in singing and suggesting songs.. after a 45 km long 1.5 hr long drive we came back to where we started and dropped down to carry on with our own individual lives..but for a moment we all had one life, one time and one motto- to enjoy being Hijacked...! and we all did that.. great efforts done by great people to bring value to small things in life..

cheers to life!!

bouquet of love #19

i've been passing time all my life
looking at lovers holding hands walking past..
i've been wondering how they met
and what makes it last all life..

i've been wanting to enjoy lying down on sand
and watching the waves coming till my feet
i've been yearning to feel that light and
flow with the tide and let go myself..

i've been thinking of it all my life..
as i've been passing time
finding the right face
i've been wondering would i even recognize??

i've been dying to take those long walks
beside the benches on the seashore
planning the dreams to wake
and so much love to make..

i've been dreaming of being with you
at the Opera theatre..
to listen to the stories they narrate
and feel your love growing in me..

i've been making air castles
where i'll be sitting with you in the verandah..
singing songs and lullabies every
full moon night... swinging to the rhythm of life...

bouquet of love #18

As the night passes by

I sit beside the window

And take a glance at the stars

Stars shining the dark night 

I wonder why God created them

These small tiny little sparkles

That twinkle in the dark and

Make a shining existence.. and vanish!

I wonder why they only be there

High up in dark & just nowhere

I yearn to be one of the kinds

To shine and vanish but leave my existence

within the dark background

And finally fall down quite below

But fulfilling someone’s wish at the same time

To be a part of fulfillment and satisfaction

Just setting in the wish for someone's happiness

becoming a sparkle to brighten someone special.. <3

bouquet of love #17

bells ringing... birds singing..
puppets dancing.. water flowing...
life fulfilling... love blooming..

it makes me feel so full
this feeling is one after a looooong time
the one that gives me goose bumps
and tinkles in my body..

it makes me feel so happy
this feeling is one after a looooong time
this one that gives me eternal pleasure
and leaves me blushing all night..

it makes me feel so proud
this feeling is one after a looooong time
this one that gives meaning to life
and leaves me completely satisfied..

it makes me feel so sexy
this feeling is one after a looooong time
this one that makes me feel beautiful
and adds mattes to my existence..

it makes me feel so childish
this feeling is one after a looooong time
the one that is carefree and freewheeling
and it lets me be the child in me..

ohhh.. this feeling so unspoken
and bewitching..
it jus keeps me going and
makes me feel a harum-scarum...

my first crush... is priceless!!

innocent. lost. confused. enthusiastic. adventurous. interesting. mysterious. adorable. caring. fun-loving. lively. talkative. - i comprise of all these adjectives.. the bulb of my mind suddenly starts passing through a high frequency voltage and the ammeter of my power of logic keeps hitting its maximum! my attitude and behavior was just not like that of a normal girl. doing something great and different, studying something BIG and making my own identity was the aspiration that i carried since i understood life..

my world would start smelling great when i saw him, suddenly the wind would blow on my face and i would feel his fragrance captivating my thoughts, my body went numb, and i literally got a mental blockage every time he came in front of me.. it was exciting.. i could feel the blood gushing through my veins, pumping in and out of my heart, missing a beat everytime he took a glance at me.. these biological changes i tell you!! they make you go crazy.. no hunger, no thirst, no sense- just his face in front of my eye and his thoughts running madly in m mind..

it is very important for me to remember all of these cause it was unconventional and unexplainable. the uneasiness in me occupied a larger pie of my mind then anything else at that point of time. the inquisitive me wanted to burst out,break the chains and splurge into the ocean of questions emerging in my mind diving to find any sensible answer. it was a different time and place.. i loved being lost in the thoughts wondering what difference does it create when i think of him.

'pyaasa kuwein ke paas jata hai, kuwaan pyaase ke paas nahi aata'... i was trembling and fumbling trying to figure out the sensex like motion inside me.. the quench of his presence in front of me, his smell in the things he touched, the electrifying current in his words, the captivating expressions on his face, the tenderness in his hands.. ooh! it was all so vague yet so important for me to experience everyday.. - yeah, my first crush! my teacher!

the urge to approach him and just listen to him, making him happy by doing things that he would appreciate, finding new queries and being pro-active in all his classes.. all of this hold a special place in my heart.. somewhere down the memory lane wen i talk a walk through it today, i feel it was very important for me to fall for an elderly person like my teacher, who drove me, my thoughts, my logic and to an extend my interest in studies.. 

this whole experience is just invaluable, it taught me so many things altogether:

• learning to cope up with the storm of emotions growing inside
• taking a new direction in life, adding meaning to life by following him
• valuing expectations and fulfilling some of those
• going out of your way to bring a smile on somebody's face
• converging your thoughts, energy and power at the same point
• holding the center of your world and rotating just around it in a straight circle
• understanding emotions of life and learning new ones every moment

i owe the transformation from my teens to a mature, voluptuous woman to the man i considered my driving force..

cheers to life!!

P.S. the matter in this blog is purely fake and has no connection to anybody dead or alive.. it has been written purely for the entry of Bigadda contest.. 

bouquet of love #16

as i stand in the garden full of flowers and ethereal perfumes
i feel something holding me hard and thn leaving me totally free
on and on it goes and i feel a different ache in my heart, my mind
i try to find the reason to it and realize that its the spring of your presence
that holds me from within and then your absence that leaves me completely free
leaving me numb and letting me forcefully adjust to wat comes my way
but i realize soon that the flowers in the garden blossom through ur caress
the perfume that it enfolds brings your smell embedded within
like the way i clearly remember the touch of your hands,
the motion of your fingers moving in my hair,
the feel of your soft lips over mine,
the shine in your eyes and the sparkle of love in it,
the chase of your desire to win me over,
the constant thrive of your hunger to gain all the eternal pleasure
by imbibing you within me and me within you...
woven together as it never were different...

a small contribution...

here i stand on the verge of entering a new world in a short span and i am completely clueless how i would frame my world, decorate it with love or happiness, find pleasure and satisfaction from simple little things, be more focussed on life and relationships, be more and more of me... the 'me' that is lost in the hush-bush of the happening city overcrowded with superficial people...

i turn back to the time i've spent here in the city- 3 years!! they passed like a time machine.. wen i look back, i try to figure out what i ve become and how have people around me and this place contributed to make me the person i am today.. m disappointed a lil knowing that i've lost the innocence that resided in me when i came to this place, but in a way i'm thankful to many people and this place (Ahmedabad) in particular to treat me the way it did to make me a more mature, more experienced, more learned, more self-focused and more of a person of matter.. i'm able to take out reasons and judgments of 7 things out of 10 happening in front of me..

i am grateful to every small contribution made by any simple lil thing that made me stand in the position i am today..

i wonder how different i am.. i watch the sunset and gaze into my own self thinking wat i ve learnt at the end of the day.. i hear birds chirping and singing and introspect wat melody i bring in people's life around me..i listen to the flowing water and question wat sound i make in the music of life and where should i take the turn and change the flow... i breathe the fresh air and think wat difference do i make by letting people count me in their life..

lonely as i sit on my bed tryin to sleep i think of all these things and simply wonder the presence of nothingness... this nothingness that helps me build into something concrete and brings fulfillment...

life and its pace

Life has become so horrible 
No time to stop, breath and fall
Its just manipulative and feeble
With no answers to anythings at all...


I wonder why we are so endorsed
into this captive and inquisitive side
Where we are never break even or grossed
but still its something which tightly abides..


i remember faint memories of past
which are full of incidents making merry
which now seems to pass too fast
making me feel like a tale fairy..


i want to go back to those moments
and gain the momentum to grab them all
make tight impressions such as monuments 
so to never let it ever fall...

love story- a song close to my heart...

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you....

bouquet of love #15

its raining finally!!!
it so happens that you await for a particular moment
to be in the moment, enjoy and cherish it
embrace it from the heart
live with it, fell it, be it!!


its raining finally!!
it so happens that you await to be with someone special
to share the moment, to enjoy the happiness,
give meaning to the moment
and memorize it forever!!


its raining finally!!
it so happens that you desperately and eagerly wait
to hold someone's hand and feel the peace
to walk in the rain holding each other
enjoying each drop of the rain as a pearl!!


its raining finally!!
it so happens that you yearn to hold that someone tightly
and vividly catch the thoughts runnin in the mind
to run to catch the butterflies and to enjoy the soothing greenery
to play, to hide, to seek, to find, to laugh.. till eternity!!


its raining finally!! 
and i miss that someone and i miss the rains
i miss the drives and all the green roads
i miss the masala chai and the pakoras
and i miss being me!!!

bouquet of love #14

"Where is love"..I quizzed the sea
"In my sapphire waves it lies" it roared proudly.

"Where is love"..I asked the trees 
"In our sweet berries" they replied merrily

"Where is love"..I questioned the azure
"In my pearly raindrops" it thundered

"Where is love"..I interrogated breeze
"In my gentle stillness" it decreed.

"Where is love"..I inquisitively asked fire
"In my golden flames" it answered me with ire

"Where is love"..I questioned the earth
"Dwells in my children's mirth"..it moved d answer..

"Where is love"..I asked a baby
"In my mother's arms"..he replied naively

"Where is love"..I cross-examined his mother
"In my baby's titter"..looking at her child's face..

"Where is love?" I asked a young girl
She smiled, "In his heart is my world"

"Where is love?" someone asked me!!
Confused I snapped "Love is in whatever I see"

Love is everywhere around me
Love is in the AIR...

Then I questioned myself
"Yet why do I feel so lonely?"