the name- Bouquet of love!

i was going through A's blogs and reading them thoroughly cause the matter was so touchy n so deep that i could feel as one of the characters in the blog..

i myself have been in love and have been writing since last 6 yrs but i couldn't maintain and update my blog regularly.. i decided to name my articles & poems related to love same as her title- love letter #1, but then i didn't know that would not sound good to A and other people..

i decided to change the title for my series of love letters, poems & articles to make it MINE!
and so i came up wid the name 'Bouquet of Love!'..

Love is like a bunch of flowers which gives u nice sweet smell and lets u breathe.. it gives a fresh feeling and lets you feel the passion of love growing inside you.

the bouquet of love would be bunch of flowers and the each time i add an article, a poem or a letter, it would be like adding one more flower to the bouquet of love.. inturn, my bouquet of love will grow every time i put up something to express my love.. it will add life to the bouquet of love we all possess in us..

love in the form of mother, in the form of my idol-my dad, in the form of faith in my God, in the form of aspiration to achieve my dreams, in the form of trust in relationships, in the form of my friends whom i look upto for my survival... its love in all possible forms on earth..

thats what i think MY bouquet of love would be...;-)

hope you all like it!

cheers to love!! :-)

Dilemma!!

Sky is dark and empty,

Not a single star found

Life is like an endless line with no ending

Just circles round and round

Self is full of questions

With all the answers unbound

Me is standing nude

With people all around

Surviving in this suffocating world

Has not brought me up but drowned

What I want from life is ambiguous

Pinching me like a wound

Just want to hear from within

A calm and satisfying sound

Saying that accomplished is the motive

For which I was send and finally peace I found!!

silence of love..

falling in love is such a divine, beautiful & bestowed feeling.

• it takes you on a roller coaster ride when you don't expect it at all. it serves you with all the void that resides inside you, of which some you express & some you don't express

• it gives you the strength to fight against all the odds and put up firmly, knowing at the back of your mind that you have a strong backbone to support you

• it gives you the eyes to see things in a different way, to experience what  otherwise you wouldn't. it lets you be yourself & at the same time drastically changes the matter of your being. it changes the way you stop, think, feel and react

• it gives you a sky to fly high, fly free & fly fearlessly. it takes away the chains of thoughts, ifs & buts, whys and many other such rulers of your mind and lets you be in a world you want to be

• it changes the feel of your touch, the touch that becomes more tender, more caring, more supporting, more motivating & above all more loving.. it just gives you a spark your touch

• the flamboyance, poise, charisma that you carry 'then' change the entire meaning of 'you' to the world. it brings out a new person in you

• it lets you think positively, motivating yourself to indulge into anything that comes your way and change the court of the ball..

love has its own syndrome effective to all who look forward to let others be into your circle of aura and vibrancy. its a very lucky feeling which only a few can understand and experience..

may god give you love to let you keep going throughout the journey of life..

cheers!!

behind the inspiration...

i started my blog in 2008 when blogging was not much known among college people.. atleast in Ahmedabad..

i started posting my poem and stuff but lost the touch of it due to studies and peer pressure..

then on i again started blogging after i joined office.. it was fun to write again and there was so much to write as i had been writing and saving my thoughts on my laptop.. it was spunky to write  while in office, it was exciting as i got a new direction to march to, it was too happening as i went through many articles and novels during the initial tenure of the professional life... all that happened at the same time.. but yet again, i lost the charm & touch due to work!

then again before a fortnight, i came across a dear friend's blog and got inspired to write again & this time is a soul promise to continue blogging on a day-to-day regular basis.. theres a lot to know, feel, think & understand.. thats what i did after reading her profile and blogs..

people.. go and visit this link..

here
to enjoy more reading.. i hope u like it!

relish it and look into your inner-self..

cheers! :-)

Bitter Reality

     Do you still remember me?
     The moments we spent together

are the memories I still cherish
Those funny faces & jokes

that made us laugh among the folks
Those cute little surprises that you gave, 

are the precious treasures I still have...

The time I've been with you 

is among the moments very special & few
You made me comfortable & cared, 

removed from me the fear of getting scared
The places I've been together around 

made history in itself I found..

Those great happy sweet memories might not ring in to you
But will always carry me in them as a crazy little girl made in LOVE wid YOU!

insight into my heart...

This one is my personal favorite!

Today, when the sun has not emerged,

My world is dark and you’re not there to light it up…

Today, when I’m standing in the rush, lost and withered,

You are not there to hold my hand and bring me out…

Today, when its shivering pinchy cold,

Your warm arms aren’t around to hold me and protect me…

Today, when I look backward, I find no one

Standing at the pole waiting for me…

Today, when I open my eyes, no birds singing,

You are not there to chirp and cheer me…

Today, when its dark and scary night,

I don’t find you in the sky to give me blissful moonlight…

Today, when I’m taking air in me, its just filthy air

Not your essence in my breath…

You say life goes on, but today when I am here,

I find everyone moving faster than before,

Me at the same place, standing still,

Waiting for time to move backward and bring me to you….

            You to shine my world

            You to bring me out

            You to provide me warmth

            You to cheer me up

            You to give me bliss

            And you only to make me ALIVE!!

confessions

If I am to tell it someday 

Then why not I speak of it today?

How much difference does it create in me

When it comes to having you in ‘WE’

It is horrible to imagine the tomorrow

Even not having you in the yesterday

But my today has been a new direction

Looking with a different angle brought the change

Down n lonely was I 

But you uplifted and boosted me 

I led you down quite a few times

But you remained there and handled me with peace

Docile, deserted and withered was I 

But I groomed and blossomed with you

You let in me the importance of ‘ME’

Which again added more respect and love to ‘WE’!!

pain..

There is a pain in my heart growing at a rapid pace

I have no reason in particular

But for sure many in general

I am looking for the solution to the pain

But land up no where than myself

I m trying to hold myself back and stand up straight

The only thing that life has taught me till now is

To not rely on anybody and stand alone at the fore front

Our weakness becomes strength to others

And that’s the only thing that ruins life

The pain will subside gradually with time

But where will I get the lost moments that I yearn for

The moments of trust, faith, respect & love

The moments of truth those have come across my journey

I’ve come a long way now

And it’s impossible to take a backs seat

I can’t just do anything but watch

The rising storm within me

But with a positive attitude & trust in Almighty

I look forward in life and still expect

Expect for a brighter day and brighter night

After all I m a human being- God’s own creation

Sex and Sensex.. India's two buzzwords!!

Sex & sensex... two blooming & buzzing words!

Well, telling the anomaly- Sex & Sensex both have one factor common - something goin up & down but what depends!! Well jokes apart.. coming back to the topic on the discussion line, where life is not at all certain then how can one be so certain about sensex & that too in a country like India!!


Comparing the two buzzwords, what is similar between these two words??
SEX- Seducing, Energetic & Xciting!  while,
SENSEX - Scentic SEX!!

Yeah this is how it is defined these days...
Both can be called frantic & foolish at the same time..

On one side we have bodies, hearts & feelings indulged while on the other side we have minds, lives, money & above all cheers & tears.

Sex has now taken up a front seat in lives of people which has changing partners.. giving a right example to fit in, PEPSI- ek se mera kya hoga!! while sensex has changing Money - a big word!

Definitions aside-
We have India's new buzzwords here but how can these two words buzz??

India being a secluded, culture oriented nation, how can these be regarded as 'BUZZWORDS'? I tell you why... coz in a country like India everything works 'under the table'!! here we also have something that is possible even 'on the table!!'  he he...

India is a country with great culture, revitalizing passion, ideas, ethics, moral values.... and the list continues... where we have an upcoming country like India these two words can definitely BUZZ.. Sex is important for one's physical & mental existence while sensex is important for one's material existence.

And i think at the end of the road we all need it.. whether it be sex or sensex.. lemme quote some lines here before i end up writing-

Sky is dark and empty, with no stars around
Me is standing nude, with people all around
Life is like an endless line, with circles round and round
but above all - PLAY SAFE!!!

Love- why men fall in and women fall out...

L- Lake of Sorrows

O- Ocean of tears

V- Valley of death

E- End of life!

Yes.. this is the criteria of love prevailing in the minds of WE- the 'COOL' dudes..! But i must say.. the perception changes from sex to sex. Oops.. Not the right sentence to be mentioned here. Actually I would like to add a statement out here, it is aptly said, "We never fall in love, we always rise in love!"

Men crave for women, have various urges from her but you never find a woman running after a man. Aa aa aaa... exceptions are always welcomed.. :-)

If we consider love as an ocean then man, after falling in the ocean of love, takes a deep bath and comes out refreshing waiting for the second chance to come. While a woman can be considered as an ocean itself!

Love for woman is like a lubricating oil, which allows free movement for life and her entire being, while that for man its like a crude oil... dark and thick!! :-(

Man has to sit on his knees and sing love songs for woman to express his feelings while even a close look into a woman's eyes is enough to express all her feelings.

Being an engineering student ONCE, I would like to add a few equations out here,

MAN - LOVE = ANIMAL

&

WOMAN + LOVE = GOD

And thats the reason why women is given second place just after God for a sacred thing like LOVE!!

Now let us just mourn for 2mins for those who r goin to die in Love @this moment...

God Bless!!

search of myself.. of my love..

i have been wanting to tell you how madly i want you
i have been wanting to tell you how badly i need you


but to my disappointment, u took me for granted!


i have been wanting you to tell me how much you love me
i have been wanting you to tell me how important i am to you


but to my disappointment, u never expressed!


i have been wanting to feel your soul
i have been wanting to be your ultimate goal


but to my disappointment, u never got connected!


i have been looking for your attention throughout
i have been looking forward to be your backbone forever


but to my disappointment, u were'nt even concerned!


i have been wanting nobody else but you
i have been wanting to be ur light when u feel blue


but to my disappointment, u never considered turning up to me!


all my life, i've been wanting only you to be my world,
to light me up, to cheer me up & to make me feel your girl but.....


to my disappointment, u never let it happen...


now that i'm standing here, looking for a better half,
u still linger in my thoughts,
and me still in my quest to conquer my questions..
where? where did it went wrong...?


for you to prioritize me, to express to me, to possess me, to connect to me,
to turn to me and to happen WE....


i still am struggling and juggling through my mind with all unquenched thirst
looking for the answers to my questions...

let be free..

Since the time we are born till the time we die, we carry so much within us and with us.. things with in us that become a part of us forever and things that we carry for a certain span of time. In  the journey of our lives, we tend to carry new things and choose to let go of others..

The stuff within us becomes our mold and determines what we are and why we are the way we are.. And sometimes, even if one wishes to, it becomes difficult to let go off certain things that makes us who we are.. things that have impacted, making impressions like that on wet clay.

Crazy me and crazier are my moves. I have lost and gained so many things at the same time. Sometimes I dunno whether to embrace the new or to weep over that which got over. What to do?
With time and experience, I realized 'Jo hota hai, achche ke liye hota hai!'.. What we must do is to BELIEVE! Have faith and trust in the Almighty,  pursue the ray of light thrown upon your way and follow it..

In this post, I share certain things that were very difficult for me to let go off and march forward....

• The strange feeling I felt on the first day of school. My mom is my world and as an anxious 4-year-old, that was the only world I knew of. I remember crying and hurting myself for days together! Eventually, I realized the importance of learning and I started enjoying the experience. Then on, I  never dodged school..
• Parting with my favorite primary school teacher, Mrs Trilochana, who treated me like I was her daughter. May be I was, in another life.. in another time. I loved her the most and she always appreciated my respect for her which is all a student asked for. It was tough to let go..but i realized there was a need to grow up and mature
• When I finished high school. The school which taught me the basics of life, the school where i learned the art of dancing, the school which was a backing pillar in the graph of my growth..the school that made me the Meera that I am today.
• The pain that I experienced when I had to leave back my kindergarten friends and move forward to meeting strangers as a new group of friends.. i realized that in life, no person remains constant.. 
• When it came the time that i had to study almost 5 levels of standards at the same time to match up with my classmates and suffice the jump that i had taken in life (i had moved from state board to ICSE boards for my 11th & 12th science!) but i realized that sometimes risks are required to reach a certain level. dedication was also the 2nd important thing..
• the pain that churned me out when i took admissions into engineering although being a hard core biology student (i wanted to do genetics!) but things dont always go the way you want them in life..
• the pain that came to me when maa was operated and i had simply no one to take care of me! i realized how vulnerable i was without the backbone of my family.. my maa!
• the pain that came my way when i passed through a rough patch in life. and thats when i met my true friends who supported me, took utter care, made me laugh & dealt with me all the time..
• while struggling to get into a good college for my MBA and while i transferred to Ahmedabad. that was the most critical time of my life where i was all alone to face the entire world. it felt like a battlefield where i was a one man army and i had a hooping, angry, ferocious crowd to pull me down and attain the victory. how could i let it happen? thats when i realized that all the strength is within me. I have the capability and compatibility to stand firm and make my way through anything and everything in life.
• the pain my heart felt when i broke into pieces when i came to know about dad's cancer for the first time. where will i go? what will i do without him? how will he survive being a very 'bechara' person in the family? the one who has always learnt lessons of life in his own way independently? who will hug me and let me be myself? who will fight for me against the odds and let me go the path i want to? all this ruined me from within.. but i realized my role as a son to him and my play my role in taking the responsibilities for my family..
• when i ended my student life and entered into a professional life. being a new person with a new attitude, a new perception and a new being.. i realized that this is the world that i have to plunge into to make an identity of myself.

during my entire journey i just realized one thing.. release yourself of everything around u and simply believe in yourself and the divine power above you. thats when you will experience the omnipresence of the Almighty...

Amen!

a new beginning every moment...

it is said 'time is the only constant'...

over the time you meet people, go to places, experience things, adjust yourself and above all know yourself better.. all these put together leads you to change yourself from time to time and adapt to fit in the surroundings.

Darwin's theory 'Survival of the Fittest' is very true in today's life given any circumstances.

you end your old being to enter a new mold every moment.. you leave behind your thoughts, beliefs, patterns, habits and innocence to become a part of the new YOU..

its a circle of life and you end up as a completely changed person to achieve things, goals, position, spirituality, love and anything in life.. kuch paane ke liye kuch khona padta hai...!!

i lost my innocence when i  was 13 n saw the first death in my family. i learnt to grow enough to stop my dad from crying. it was my time to be with him and hug him..

i lost my innocence when i entered the ISC board school in my 10th and when people challenged me instead of motivating me for such a drastic step. i learnt to accept challenge and to show people of your strong will in achieving something.

i lost my innocence when people cheated me in my college. when they lied to me and used me. i learnt not to blindly trust anyone around you and to have courage and confidence to fight against any wild situation given to you.

i lost my innocence when i came to Ahmedabad for the first time. the brutal, straight on face behavior by people around made me feel alone even in the middle of thousands. thats where i learnt to survive on my confidence, make decisions independently and respect the life within me!

i took my lessons from life at every step. every step was a battlefront where i was supported by hardly few around me. but it was a good learning experience. the culture shock that i had observed here was life threatening coz i never had a habit to live alone and think only about me..

i lost my innocence when i entered professional life and saw how you can be treated like a nothing in front of a group of people. thats when i learnt to know things confidently and to never take shit from others. i learnt to take a stand for yourself and respect yourself. if you yourself dont do that nobody else would either.

i lost my innocence when i fell out of love. after investing a lot emotionally and mentally i realised its of no use if the opposite person doesnt change his mind for the betterment of both. i learnt not to invest above a certain limit and give importance to ME first and think of others after me. i also learnt nothing is impossible if u wish for it and badly want it..

i learnt a lot many things and lost my innocence at each moment. i'm still learning and now i'm looking forward to loose my innocence to grow every moment and learn a new lesson...

i lost my innocence....

bouquet of love #1

i feel like a feather, weightless and soft, free to move in any direction i want to, to achieve any height i wish...

this is how u make me feel when u are around.

i m left speechless, drowned into my emotions,

overflown with love and care, my gestures seem to have no notions..

i wonder why we met

maybe to fulfill certain debt

to share & witness our lives

and cherish together the time that arrives

i love the way you handle me

and be with me till the wee

when you take me in you warm embrace

it enhances my entire grace

to be with you is all i want

cause you dont ever let me daunt

you take me to a place called peace

here i find heaven and all my worries cease

your unspoken words i can see through your eyes

and your looks strongly abide me in your entice

when we sit together watching the moon shine

that is when i feel that i'm surely thine..

your lingering finger in my locks

leave me speechless and makes me rock

my heart misses a beat by your elcetrifying touch

i go in a trance as it enchants me so much

this is the way how you make me feel

being in love with you is just so ideal...

the more i learn, the more i feel the less i know....

The statement struck right through my mind racing at a lightening speed while going through my friend's status on facebook. I really owe a lot to this statement as i can straight away see myself that ways. i thought to share a few of those thousand thoughts running through my mind when i recall this statement - 'the more i learn, the more i feel the less i know.'

my entire life fits into this very short, simple, straight statement and i think everyone else's too..

i have chosen advertising as my career. advertising- one of the most uncertain, happening, glamor oriented & market trend run industry. i entered the flamboyant industry with a charm in me thinking it would be the most happening place in the world.. to some extent it is true. it IS the most happening place in the world where nobody sleeps. there is always a struggle to create bigger & better and to deliver much more that the normal expectations.

there is so much happening in the agency & lot more being developed & created every moment & to be in the loops and grasp everything is just not possible. trust me! its very difficult to establish yourself in an ever changing industry like this.

every day is a new day here, every task is a new task and every mistake is a new learning.. it is not a monotonous job that probably a banker or an accountant does. new experiences get on added every moment. learnign is a continuous process here. and every day something or the other comes my way that i dont know or have a slightest knowledge about. that when i feel ' the more i know, the more i feel the less i know..'

even in life it is the same. we meet new people, we face new problems, we adjust to new surroundings, we compromise with cllosed ones, we learn from the learned, we explore the adventure, we speak the unspoken & we live a new US!

life gives back more to what we give to life. that's where i rememer a few lines here....

Ten Rules for Being Human - by Cherie Carter-Scott

1. You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's yours to keep for the entire period.

2. You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, "life."

3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work."

4. Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.

5. Learning lessons does not end. There's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. If you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.

6. "There" is no better a place than "here." When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."

7. Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.

8. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9. Your answers lie within you. The answers to life's questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.

10. You will forget all this.

this is how learning is.. i hope is did justice to what the statement meant..

learn.... learn.... learn...!

10 things that i would do before i leave Ahmedabad....

i have been sitting and waiting for J at Baristaa for more than 20mins. my mind is racing fast to meet her and share the happiness of her new job and to know more about the new office, people & work culture of the new place...

she was on her way back from Adalaj Vaav. suddenly it struck me that i have not seen no place in AHmedabad. studies have kept me so much involved that i never got the time to enjoy myself..

i saw a Baristaa paper napkin lying in front of me and then is decided to make a list of 10 places that i would like to visit definitely before bidding farewell to Ahmedabad.. and the list goes like this...

1. A nice exotic spa
2. Vaishnav Devi Madir
3. Nalsarovar & Adalaj Vaav
4. Heritage Walk
5. Mangaldas ni Haweli
6. Natrani Cafe
7. Manek Chowk @night
8. Shrinathji
9. A weekend stay @ Rajpath/Karnavati Club
10. Patang Hotel

so far i have been able to visit 5 out of the 10 mentiones places.. would love to visit even more places..

poeple!!!!! drop in the names of places that are not mentioned here so that i can also admire the few of many places in Ahmedabad..

i hope u would have many other names in your mind...

:-)

Stuff that makes me drooool…..

the smell of freshly brewed coffee!! :-) simply BLISS!
Shops!! simply any shopping place..
chocolates.... ummmmm!
long, long drives in the night...
chick flicks
Surprises from close ones...
yellow ambiance & classy lamshades
Gifts!!! in any number...
food outlets..
cold morning breeze
reading cute romantic poems & articles
my pink room
a walk by the sea shore
tea by the roadside @kitli with friends
food outlets..
long weekends with lots of peaceful sleep
spa... aaahha..
late night crazy stuff wid room-mates
dad's hug..
maa's lap
softy ice creams with lots of crunchies..

u can also write in like my friend asked me to do it...

cm'on write it and see wat all things come on the list... :)

story of US..!

unexpectedly you came into my life

finding love i walk to you

then you talk & think to make me your wife

to begin a beginning new..

the smell of our bodies infuse

with your passionate touch of care

how much i love to see your tattoos

so many speechless moments we share

dim lit room by the end of the hall

dancing shadows & sensual forms on the wall

heart beating restlessness flourishing with time

converting the moment into a passionate rhyme

hundreds of candles with luminescent glow

trying to replicate the moon below

cries of love & fulfilling desire

kindle within with subsiding fire

with you i feel eternity a step away

lost with you i want to be forever

we continue to grow with each passing day

i wish we stay always in this endeavour......

the end of my search..

i've searched for you,

beyond my reach

beyond the stars, beyond the blissful light,

beyond the sun & beyond the sunny daylight..

i knew for sure that you were there

but i lost it by the wink of an eye here & there..

while searching when i felt i couldn't take it anymore

i kept on crying

i also couldn't sit back

so i kept on trying..

i knew for sure that you were there

but i lost it by the wink of an eye here & there..

i reminded myself every moment

he is just present somewhere

i didn't let my thought ferment

and kept on searching everywhere

i knew for sure that you were there

but i lost it by the wink of an eye here & there..

moment to moment

place to place 

i tried looking for you

at heart throbbing pace

i knew for sure that you were there

but i lost it by the wink of an eye here & there..

he is also thinking for me

i consoled myself

and continued my searcg

the search for love i was seeking..

i knew for sure that you were there

but i lost it by the wink of an eye here & there..

suddenly one day u stood

right in front of me

i felt like lost in the woods

with you forever i want to be..

i was right that you were there

but i lost you by the wink of my eye here & there..

i was overflowing with mixed feelings

dying to call you mine

came with you the healing

that i am now going to be thine

finally it lead me to you

i finally found someone

true & loving

caring & nurturing..

my search for you ended

and i m truly blessed

it was all well blended

content i am at the end of my quest...

thoughts from my mind..

its really been a long time since i wrote a blog, but i was in kinda slow state of mind.. trying to pen down what my mind had and express what my heart felt. the juggling of time between work and personal life was getting on my nerves.

fianlly i sit today to pen down what my mind refers to every now n then:

• the work life in which i have established myself in life has been of great proud. i did it all by myself to learn things that are not taught & to gain confidence that is never given. i settled in my first job after 10 months! it was very difficult to know the unknown and to beat the odds.
• i managed the bigger expenses of life through my hard earned, extra time & efforts put earned money. i made my first trip by air on my own.. setting up a trip to lonawala and mumbai on my own and frekain gout will old girlfriends..
• i hunted for a house for 6months and found a lovely apartment facing a beautiful garden. i managed shifting the house and making the house with the help pf my mom dad n my friends.. now i have my personal room in the house and can relax and chill cooking variety of food in the kitchen. it feels so proud & happening to have your own house, decorate your own room, making your own kitchen, & in all doing things all by our own, taking all the responsibilities and at the same time having fun like hell..
• in my journey to the new life, i made new friends & lost touch with quiet some old friends. the new friends let me learn & experience what otherwise i would never do, while the old friends are still there to support me and to help me fight the odds that i face.
• i enjoyed a lot of nightouts and fun nights with J, J & R.. it was fun having Pajama Parties & all girl nights and doing the craziest things like dancing in the dark room, singing till the sun rises, sitting in the gallery and sipping coffee, talking & crying & sharing things, getting high on the terrace & feeling the cold breeze on the terrace of 10 story apartment, watching chick flicks back to back till my eyes hurt, getting up at 3 in the morning jus to suffice the craving of having some sweet, talking & talking & talking & talking... that all was BLISS!!

these some of the many things that my mind has, which needed to be put on a paper.. to be a witness to all of you reading it...

i hope u liked them... :)

put in ur comments to let me write more...