let be free..

Since the time we are born till the time we die, we carry so much within us and with us.. things with in us that become a part of us forever and things that we carry for a certain span of time. In  the journey of our lives, we tend to carry new things and choose to let go of others..

The stuff within us becomes our mold and determines what we are and why we are the way we are.. And sometimes, even if one wishes to, it becomes difficult to let go off certain things that makes us who we are.. things that have impacted, making impressions like that on wet clay.

Crazy me and crazier are my moves. I have lost and gained so many things at the same time. Sometimes I dunno whether to embrace the new or to weep over that which got over. What to do?
With time and experience, I realized 'Jo hota hai, achche ke liye hota hai!'.. What we must do is to BELIEVE! Have faith and trust in the Almighty,  pursue the ray of light thrown upon your way and follow it..

In this post, I share certain things that were very difficult for me to let go off and march forward....

• The strange feeling I felt on the first day of school. My mom is my world and as an anxious 4-year-old, that was the only world I knew of. I remember crying and hurting myself for days together! Eventually, I realized the importance of learning and I started enjoying the experience. Then on, I  never dodged school..
• Parting with my favorite primary school teacher, Mrs Trilochana, who treated me like I was her daughter. May be I was, in another life.. in another time. I loved her the most and she always appreciated my respect for her which is all a student asked for. It was tough to let go..but i realized there was a need to grow up and mature
• When I finished high school. The school which taught me the basics of life, the school where i learned the art of dancing, the school which was a backing pillar in the graph of my growth..the school that made me the Meera that I am today.
• The pain that I experienced when I had to leave back my kindergarten friends and move forward to meeting strangers as a new group of friends.. i realized that in life, no person remains constant.. 
• When it came the time that i had to study almost 5 levels of standards at the same time to match up with my classmates and suffice the jump that i had taken in life (i had moved from state board to ICSE boards for my 11th & 12th science!) but i realized that sometimes risks are required to reach a certain level. dedication was also the 2nd important thing..
• the pain that churned me out when i took admissions into engineering although being a hard core biology student (i wanted to do genetics!) but things dont always go the way you want them in life..
• the pain that came to me when maa was operated and i had simply no one to take care of me! i realized how vulnerable i was without the backbone of my family.. my maa!
• the pain that came my way when i passed through a rough patch in life. and thats when i met my true friends who supported me, took utter care, made me laugh & dealt with me all the time..
• while struggling to get into a good college for my MBA and while i transferred to Ahmedabad. that was the most critical time of my life where i was all alone to face the entire world. it felt like a battlefield where i was a one man army and i had a hooping, angry, ferocious crowd to pull me down and attain the victory. how could i let it happen? thats when i realized that all the strength is within me. I have the capability and compatibility to stand firm and make my way through anything and everything in life.
• the pain my heart felt when i broke into pieces when i came to know about dad's cancer for the first time. where will i go? what will i do without him? how will he survive being a very 'bechara' person in the family? the one who has always learnt lessons of life in his own way independently? who will hug me and let me be myself? who will fight for me against the odds and let me go the path i want to? all this ruined me from within.. but i realized my role as a son to him and my play my role in taking the responsibilities for my family..
• when i ended my student life and entered into a professional life. being a new person with a new attitude, a new perception and a new being.. i realized that this is the world that i have to plunge into to make an identity of myself.

during my entire journey i just realized one thing.. release yourself of everything around u and simply believe in yourself and the divine power above you. thats when you will experience the omnipresence of the Almighty...

Amen!