wave of emptiness takes over...

2 am. i boggle through my mind and introspect about what exactly is happening in my life since a few months. i question myself as to what i have been doing and how have i gone about it. life gives us so many things to indulge.. as in relationships, friends, work, fun, adventure, emotions, and the list is endless..

we are always occupied wid something or the other or may be multi-tasking with many things at the same time.. i was jus pondering upon what i have been upto since past few months. where m i heading, what m i doin, how m i doin things that come my way and all.. life gives us so much that we are always full and loaded. but suddenly i have been experiencing this wave of emptiness.. i feel so hollow from inside.. it can either be quoted as a state of confusion or as a mysterious state where i don know where to go and what to feel.. the priority list is screwed up and there seems no direction to anything.

its the feeling of emptiness, numbness, hollowness & space within you. there is nothingness all over, no mass you can weigh or give importance to. this introspection thing is very bad i m telling you.. it gives you a sad reflection if you dont enjoy the emptiness.. there are basically two sides to emptiness, one when you totally enjoy the emptiness and feel at peace and the other when you dont seem to have any matter important enough to drive your entire concentration to and take time to think, feel and react! currently i am experiencing the latter.

it feels pathetic to feel that hollow and empty nothingness.. it drives you towards pondering on various incidents, either present or past, and scratches out more from within. that which is left aside, unspoken & untouched. it brings in front all of it and asks you to withstand the byline of all of it..

i pity myself thinking of being in that wave of emptiness. miss the emotion, the life in things that i do, the fun in doin things and finishin it by the dead lines and all vanishes.. feel the dire need to have something more important, heavy and soothing.. which gives meanin to life and adds value to every moment i spend doing anything..

this emptiness can only vanish once your mind concentrates on something else which in turn is more important, more attractive, more indulging, more worthy and more meaningful.. here m talkin about some typical kind of emptiness... read the song to understand it...

feel like quoting a romantic song here:

i finally found someone
who makes me over my feet
i finally found someone
who makes me feel complete..

it started over coffee
we started out as friends
its funny how from simple things
the best thing became

this time is still
its all because of you
its better then its ever been
coz we can talk it through

my favorite line
was can i call you sometime
its all you had to say
to take my breath away..

did i keep you wait?
i didnt even mind
i apologize
baby thats fine
i'll wait forever
just to know you are mine..

i m sure when such emptiness takes over, few words from a sweetheart can melt the emptiness wave and get you back to motion, to life...

m waitin for that special someone to come and fill the emptiness within me.. some of you would be in the same state as mine.. so i wish all of them best luck for the search then.. till then keep filling ur inner-self with comments below my post ;-)

cheers!!!